Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Some More Reasons I am Jeremy Crow After All - Volume 8

Of all the things in life I’ve lost, I miss my mind the most. That has been one of my favorite sayings for the last 22 years of my life. It sums me up, or so I would try to tell anyone who meets me. The fact of the matter is, we all lose things, and when the mind is gone we tend not to care about a good majority of them. Most of the things I equate personally with losing my mind almost always has to do with things that aren’t even really equated with my mind. More often than not it is just whining about utterly unimportant things that have more to do with my vanity than anything else.

I think it’s rather amusing, my “enlightenment” over the last year about writing, because there was a time when I couldn’t even get myself to do it unless I knew there would be about 200 hits every time I published something. Walking away from it could have construed as losing my mind, and I think that it actually was. My own self righteousness has always been my worst enemy, but I was able to prove that I could get 15 minutes of fame on several occasions, and walk away from it as well. It all depends on someone’s definition of fame really, because I was never really anything to speak of on my best day, but somewhere along the lines I learned to like writing regardless of who reads it. Some would say that that would constitute losing my mind, and I think I agree.

The internet has become cluttered with social networking sites over the last few years, let me tell you, and each and every one of them has their good side and their bad side. Myspace is where almost everyone is, but it is the most user unfriendly and buggy site on the internet. Hell I have been trying to get my page deleted for 3 years and can’t, so I give up. I even resorted to filling the whole page with porn, and they just erased the porn and left the page. Yahoo 360 is a drama festival filled with retards who simply found it because they use Yahoo messenger. Most of the people using Yahoo messenger are doing so for less than “human” ideals and carry that to 360 with them. Live Journal became a overly monitored arm of the decency police, and the only thing worse than that is the way everyone using it cry about it. Blogger is the place to go if you need to steal content for your own blog, etc etc etc.

Not a day goes by when I don’t get an invite to some new Social Networking site, some Writer’s Site, or some other form of Hook Up site, and they usually just get deleted. Who has time for all of that crap anymore? I also have guilty feelings about all the people who have followed me from one site to the next, and the numbers have dwindled down to just about nothing. Who can blame them either? I use a site called Multiply now but it bores the crap out of me, and as always I have kept all of my writings on my own site for the eventuality that I will need to leave memories for the family after the funeral. Without a doubt though, it always makes me feel better knowing that it is there because nobody can tell me to do shit, make rules, delete me, or make money off of me there. It’s my little piece of serenity.

I finally got the mother of all invites to a site {sorry I don’t know the address because it was hard enough to click the delete through the laughter} that called itself “180 – Half of 360s Bullshit” which reminded me of why I left 360, which was all of the bullshit. I mean don’t get me wrong, they deleted my profile for being an ass, but I could have salvaged it all the same way all the stalkers do, and just create profile after profile, but it gets old to us that might not have actually lost our minds. This new site was simply openly advertising to those types that they can run amuck in 180 land. Let’s face it, but half of 360s bullshit is roughly 100 percent more bullshit than I need. I feel rather stupid signing up for Multiply because it’s advertising campaign was “360 is dying and they are all coming to Multiply” and why in the name of God would I want that? Needless to say I haven’t had the hoards of insane snerts hunting me down on Multiply, but then again I am not that popular anymore. That’s a blessing if you ask me.

You really have to think about it this way, but if it is a Social Networking site that you are trying to escape from, then it is the “social” that you are probably trying to get away from. I mean the rules that the site sets up usually creates the monsters that chase you out of there and all but once a monster has been made you usually can’t put them in a new environment, and expect them to adapt. Take it from me, I have actually had the same emotionally inept reject follow me to 4 different sites until I either finally ditched him or he finally realized that ruining my life was as boring as my life in general. That’s the price of 15 minutes of popularity within the reach of a self righteous jerk like myself. It doesn’t mean that I deserved it or even earned it, but more to the point, it just means that that is what you get when you hang out in an anonymous electronic world, so the best advice I can give is to especially not get into whims about where you hang out.

The worst part of it all was coming to the reality that more often than not, what I wrote wasn’t as good as I thought it was. I know that perceptions are far more than what one denotes as rules. This might have been where I lost my mind, but then again the one thing that makes a sane person sane is if they actually wonder if they are insane or not. This was the enlightenment of it all as I stopped caring about what I wrote and how it pertained to those that were reading it. I started living my life more on this end of the computer monitor, and updating the other side accordingly. Those that care to find it do, and those that don’t care to find it will always write me an e-mail every year or so telling me “I’m sorry I haven’t been around in a while but …” and I don’t have to take that to mean, that they are changing that trend. Do what makes you happy, and don’t worry about the audience Jeremy, it will all come out in the wash anyway ;8o)

Other Crap This Weirdo Publishes... The Crow's Nest {The Homepage of Jeremy Crow} Mental Notes & Random Musings {Daily Blog} Mental Rants & Political Rage {For Those That Like His Political Rantings} Mental Imagry & Random Perversion {Adult Stories .. Assume they are rated X} Itching For Coffee {Community Blog} Jeremy Crow on Twitter {For The Easily Amused} Blogaholics Anonymous {E-Mail Blogging Group}

Nothing that was printed here was intended to offend anyone, and if it did, screw ya, you begged for it. If you believe that there are some measures that can be taken to change me, then please feel free to pray for me, and while you are at it yourself, because you read this far, and if you hated every minute of it, then you are an idiot, not me, or the other people who like what I have to say! .. Jeremy

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