Thursday, October 20, 2005

Songs From the Mind of a Madman - Volume 1

This song by W.A.S.P. had been ringing in my mind a lot during my last rupture of sanity last weekend, and it was to be my final "Swan Song" into the blogging world, but in the end it was the loving encouragement of many, that brought me back from the abyss. Many of those that did, in turn asked me the one favor ... that I not leave them yet ... in blogs, or in friendship. Chew on this song until I post the whole story of the breakdown later, after I get some sleep. I am actually ready now, as I am NOT in the ranting type of mood I usually am as I emote such nonsense, and perhaps I can find the way to tell the tale less emotionally. That is how I believe it needs to be told this time ... Love Ya Mean It :D

The Great Misconceptions Of Me

Welcome to the show the great finale's finally here
I thank you for coming into my theater of fear
Welcome to the show, you're all witnesses you see
A privileged invitation to the last rights of me
Remember me? You can't save me
Mama you never needed me
No crimson king, look in my eye, you'll see
Mama I'm lonely, it's only me, only me
I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be
The crimson idol of a million
I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be
The crimson idol of a million eyes, of a million
I am the prisoner of the paradise I dreamed
The idol of a million lonely faces look at me
Behind the mask of sorrow, four doors of doom behind my eyes
I've got their footprints all across my crimson mind
Long live, long live, long live the king of mercy
Long live, long live
There is no love, to shelter me
Only love, love set me free
No love, to shelter me, only love, love set me free
I was the warrior, with an anthem in my soul
The idol of eight thousand lonely days of rage ago
And remember me when it comes your time to choose
Be careful what you wish for, it might just come true
Red, crimson red, am I the invisible boy
The strap on my back
Red, crimson red, no I was never to be
Only one crimson son, no it never was me
Living in the limelight little did I know
I was dying in the shadows and the mirror was my soul
It was all I ever wanted, everything I dreamed
But the dream became my nightmare and no-one could hear me scream
With these six-strings, I make a noose
To take my life, it's time to choose
The headlines read of my suicide, of my suicide
Oh sweet silence, where is the sting
I am no idol, no crimson king
I'm the impostor, the world has seen
My father was the idol, it was never me
I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be
The crimson idol of a million
I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be
The crimson idol of a million eyes
No love, to shelter me, only love
Love set me free
No love, to shelter me, only love
Love set me free

On to the show ... My bed is calling me ... goodnight dear friends ... see you around 1:30 with the rest of this tale ;8o)